"Love is...

patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." (1 Cor. 13:4-8a)

There are days when I struggle with my humanity and forget the WHY of what I am doing here. Today is one of those days. Today was depressing, disappointing, and disillusioning. Today felt like "Pick on Becky Day" and I failed at every endeavor undertaken throughout the course of the day (according to my critics). By 8pm, I threw in the towel, gave up on the day, and retreated to my room. My mother always taught me that if I couldn't say something nice, I shouldn't say anything at all. My self-control had been taxed to the limit and I decided isolation was my only recourse.

I spent a nice quiet few hours reading and then emerged to check out the lunar eclipse. (Way cool, BTW) God impressed His love on me through His creation and I started to pull myself out of my negatively focused thoughts. I rest on His promises and unfailing love. I need to focus on what is important. These earthly things are insignificant when compared to eternity. "Great is Thy faithfulness, O God, My Father. There is no shadow of turning with Thee. Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not. As Thou hast been, Thou forever wilt be."

6 weeks ago...

...I waved goodbye to Phoenix and began the journey east. So much and yet so little has happened since that day. Grandpa and I have settled into a routine of sorts. I cook and clean, he pays the bills, and we both put wood in the boiler. :) I am still actively seeking employment but without much luck. The economy/job market here in North Central NY is not necessarily "hostile" but not so "friendly" either. I am trusting God to show me His path. I look to Philippians 4:19 for encouragement when I start to worry about car payments and student loans. I know He will provide all my needs.

Let it SNOW!

After a strange winter "hiatus" that brought 62 degrees and sunshine, the snow has returned as a reminder that it is indeed still January. The natural order of the seasons has been restored and all is well with the world once again.


It has been snowing steadily since yesterday morning. We aren't yet approaching the 48 inches for which Levi continually prays, but it's enough to require boots and to cause road hazards.