SNOWMOBILING

I have found an outdoor winter activity that I actually enjoy! SNOWMOBILING!! What a rush! Levi took me out for a ride last night and I had a blast. I didn't even care that I had lost all feeling in my nose. I had on boots, Carhart overalls, scarf, gloves, and helmet, but the visor on the helmet is stuck so I had the wind in my face. And the snow spray. And tree branches. Good thing Levi was driving. He proved to be an excellent human shield. :) It was really cool (no pun intended) to ride under the bright moonlight. What a thrilling way to experience God's creation.

"Love is...

patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." (1 Cor. 13:4-8a)

There are days when I struggle with my humanity and forget the WHY of what I am doing here. Today is one of those days. Today was depressing, disappointing, and disillusioning. Today felt like "Pick on Becky Day" and I failed at every endeavor undertaken throughout the course of the day (according to my critics). By 8pm, I threw in the towel, gave up on the day, and retreated to my room. My mother always taught me that if I couldn't say something nice, I shouldn't say anything at all. My self-control had been taxed to the limit and I decided isolation was my only recourse.

I spent a nice quiet few hours reading and then emerged to check out the lunar eclipse. (Way cool, BTW) God impressed His love on me through His creation and I started to pull myself out of my negatively focused thoughts. I rest on His promises and unfailing love. I need to focus on what is important. These earthly things are insignificant when compared to eternity. "Great is Thy faithfulness, O God, My Father. There is no shadow of turning with Thee. Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not. As Thou hast been, Thou forever wilt be."

6 weeks ago...

...I waved goodbye to Phoenix and began the journey east. So much and yet so little has happened since that day. Grandpa and I have settled into a routine of sorts. I cook and clean, he pays the bills, and we both put wood in the boiler. :) I am still actively seeking employment but without much luck. The economy/job market here in North Central NY is not necessarily "hostile" but not so "friendly" either. I am trusting God to show me His path. I look to Philippians 4:19 for encouragement when I start to worry about car payments and student loans. I know He will provide all my needs.